::If You Wanna Get Out Alive::

[zfreelance]

Hey kids. I am sick today. Kinda.

I was very ill yesterday, headache and nausea all the way, and today isnt much better. But my fever broke, so technically I should be in school.

Pft.

I feel okay, but I still cant eat, and if my insides are gonna start shaking and if Im gonna be swimming through vertigo, I am not gonna be doing it at school.

I am in a kind of limbo at the moment. I am leaving this family. I know that. I am waiting for my mother to fire off the distress e-mail, and for ASSEs reaction, but I cant stay here. But until then I nod and smile and basically present a moving tagert for Mme Jauberts critisms. I used to get frustrated to the point of tears, but now I can relax and say to myself, doesnt matter, Im leaving anyway.

Forgive the lack of apostrophies. This keyboard is being wierd.

Anyway, Mme is out of the house, so Im gonna finish up an e-mail home and log off. My heads starting to hurt again.

Peace out.

Comments

[raptress.livejournal.com]

Damn, sorry to hear nothing worked out -and- you're sick. So here's the obligatory 'get better soon' and 'hope everything works out alright in the end,' even though those are pretty useless sentiments, aren't they? So do you think you're going to be transferred to another family in the area or do you think it's gonna end with you just coming home early?

[zfreelance.livejournal.com]

Thanks, love. I needed that.

I don't know. When I leave this family, the chances of them finding me a second are rather slim, so coming home early is a big possibility. But Mom and I are more than willing to make ASSE work as hard as they can to help me finish this year. Because I don't want to come home, I just want to leave this family.

Who knows...