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I wanna road trip. Right now.
Camping! I wanna sleep in a tent and have to fight with wet wood at the crack of dawn to get a fire going and walk a good forty feet to get to the ladies bathroom that doesn't have a light. I wanna drive in a car all day with nothing on either side of me except hills and trees, singing along to some generic radio station beaming out of some Indian-named town I can't even pronounce. I wanna go three days without a shower, because there's no point, and have to drive outside of the national park I'm sleeping in to do my laundry. I wanna have to wash my hair in rest stop sinks out of necessity, sleep in the back of my car because I'm too broke for a motel and too far away from a campsite. I wanna not be able to see a single light around me except for the stars. I wanna be able to see my breath, freeze my ass off and have to stop in a diner just to get a cup of coffee to warm up. I wanna watch it snow.
I am so tired of this semester. I'm tired of the classes, the stress, the worry. I'm getting freaky mood swings (see this entry) and I'm bored out of my mind. I don't know how I'm gonna make myself go to class, tomorrow.
I'm not looking forward to the holidays. I'm not getting along with my family at all. To be expected, sure. But my last short visit had me craving about a pack and a half to calm down and not scream at people. I don't know how I'm gonna make it to New Years. I'm supposed to get a job, which is so not gonna happen this year. Layoffs and freezes on hiring as far as the eye can see. I'll calm down sometime later about this, but the problem remains. I'll be stuck with nowhere to go, and no way to get there, because my little sister is rather possessive of the car.
Jesus, I want my own car.
And I hate the holidays.
Camping! I wanna sleep in a tent and have to fight with wet wood at the crack of dawn to get a fire going and walk a good forty feet to get to the ladies bathroom that doesn't have a light. I wanna drive in a car all day with nothing on either side of me except hills and trees, singing along to some generic radio station beaming out of some Indian-named town I can't even pronounce. I wanna go three days without a shower, because there's no point, and have to drive outside of the national park I'm sleeping in to do my laundry. I wanna have to wash my hair in rest stop sinks out of necessity, sleep in the back of my car because I'm too broke for a motel and too far away from a campsite. I wanna not be able to see a single light around me except for the stars. I wanna be able to see my breath, freeze my ass off and have to stop in a diner just to get a cup of coffee to warm up. I wanna watch it snow.
I am so tired of this semester. I'm tired of the classes, the stress, the worry. I'm getting freaky mood swings (see this entry) and I'm bored out of my mind. I don't know how I'm gonna make myself go to class, tomorrow.
I'm not looking forward to the holidays. I'm not getting along with my family at all. To be expected, sure. But my last short visit had me craving about a pack and a half to calm down and not scream at people. I don't know how I'm gonna make it to New Years. I'm supposed to get a job, which is so not gonna happen this year. Layoffs and freezes on hiring as far as the eye can see. I'll calm down sometime later about this, but the problem remains. I'll be stuck with nowhere to go, and no way to get there, because my little sister is rather possessive of the car.
Jesus, I want my own car.
And I hate the holidays.
